Right, rant over!
I really want to do makeup tutorial videos on youtube and be an amazing makeup artist and go out and make people feel beautiful but I'm so scared. The industry is so competitive, and just from a minor insight into it it's frightened me! For example, Kandee Johnson is so beautiful and inspirational, but she gets hate mail telling her to kill herself and that she's ugly. She has so much sunshine in her heart that nothing seems to cloud her spirit, but if someone said that to me I feel like it would hurt me so much, even if it was just through the computer. I'm so sensitive and have very thin skin, so not sure how well I'll fare in the industry! However my passion for the art in it keeps my spirit alive, so I'm going to try my best! And if it gets too much, I guess I'm allowed to back out and say no.. but fingers crossed eh!
I'm off to watch Gossip Girl then the Apprentice then the Only Way is Essex - the girl in it, Amy, is so beautiful! She always looks so polished and just like any mans dream!